Good luck to me... october 5... @_@
i think he will pinch my ears because i did not take my freelancing job seriously... oh my... and sometimes i forgot to drink my meds, but all in all i am doing well... and improving as what i know... speaking and communicating with the outside world again...
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
still in progress
i found another term for what i am doing:
I'm currently addicted to facebook's games (Farmville and Farm Town) and it's a double purpose for me... one, i am doing this for my play age mini me... i was deprived from playing video games or pc games when i was a kid because my mom believes that it wont help me, i wont get knowledge from it. I think that's why i am into pc, i like discovering things using pc and create things, designs and etc... Second, i am learning things that is applicable in life.
Farmville and farmtown gives me this spark in my life right now, it teaches me to persevere, to be patient and wise... because you have to choose what to plant, what is profitable and try to be thrifty so you can buy the decorations or things for you farm and the best part is to aim to have the house... it's like you are trying to build your dreams... you also can hire people who will harvest your crops, thank them, acknowledge their efforsts and etc.. it's so fun!
Maybe unconsciously i'm absorbing it and in the future i can use what i've learned from this...
Believe it or not... i am currently handling 4 accounts including mine... 2 accounts of my friends and plus my mom's... so all in all.. 8 farms... ^_^ but i like what i'm doing.. it makes me responsible... it's training me bit by bit...
some would really say that it's stupid to play... well, i really believed that programmers, people who created the technologies are into pc or video games...
it's better late than never... so i am enjoying now the games...
Art Therapy
I'm currently addicted to facebook's games (Farmville and Farm Town) and it's a double purpose for me... one, i am doing this for my play age mini me... i was deprived from playing video games or pc games when i was a kid because my mom believes that it wont help me, i wont get knowledge from it. I think that's why i am into pc, i like discovering things using pc and create things, designs and etc... Second, i am learning things that is applicable in life.
Farmville and farmtown gives me this spark in my life right now, it teaches me to persevere, to be patient and wise... because you have to choose what to plant, what is profitable and try to be thrifty so you can buy the decorations or things for you farm and the best part is to aim to have the house... it's like you are trying to build your dreams... you also can hire people who will harvest your crops, thank them, acknowledge their efforsts and etc.. it's so fun!
Maybe unconsciously i'm absorbing it and in the future i can use what i've learned from this...
Believe it or not... i am currently handling 4 accounts including mine... 2 accounts of my friends and plus my mom's... so all in all.. 8 farms... ^_^ but i like what i'm doing.. it makes me responsible... it's training me bit by bit...
some would really say that it's stupid to play... well, i really believed that programmers, people who created the technologies are into pc or video games...
it's better late than never... so i am enjoying now the games...
Sunday, September 20, 2009
25% in progress
RCW1
I attended the "Reparenting the Child Within" last August 21 to 23, 2009 at RCW foundation. The place was far from our home but I was really determinde to attend this because I badly needed it.
I already mentioned I have avoidant personality disorder and social phobia, but some would not believe it because it doesnt show that much... the anxiousness, panic attacks in which sometimes i dont even notice it.
I've been into lots of seminar / retreat because of my youth org... but lately I am already bored to the topics because it doesn't targets my age, our age (the senior members)... Most of the time the retreat master addresses the topics to the teens and we have been into those things already...
So, therefore, RCW1 hit my consciousness... i mean, i can relate now.. this is the higher level, the next step of my well being...
The seminar helped me a lot like dissecting our life from birth up to present. I learned a lot of things that my psychiatrist didnt tell me. He just told me to do things that i want, I think he really meant to experience the things that are deprived from me since birth. The seminar explained the whole thing. I can now understand why i am like this and that... though i already know that i was most wounded in my schooldays age because my psych told me before hand... that's why i am taking meds because of my traumas my "brain cells" didnt develop properly.. [i cant remember the right term but, he said something like that"]...
Current Status:
I am now socializing bit by bit and most of the time on the net only... but i can now say more things than before... and the next step is to come out and socialize with the real people in front of me. About my sleeping pattern, well, i really love to work at night... i'm still working on it... to sleep normally....
"The best seminar / retreat / recollection I've ever had."
I attended the "Reparenting the Child Within" last August 21 to 23, 2009 at RCW foundation. The place was far from our home but I was really determinde to attend this because I badly needed it.
I already mentioned I have avoidant personality disorder and social phobia, but some would not believe it because it doesnt show that much... the anxiousness, panic attacks in which sometimes i dont even notice it.
I've been into lots of seminar / retreat because of my youth org... but lately I am already bored to the topics because it doesn't targets my age, our age (the senior members)... Most of the time the retreat master addresses the topics to the teens and we have been into those things already...
So, therefore, RCW1 hit my consciousness... i mean, i can relate now.. this is the higher level, the next step of my well being...
The seminar helped me a lot like dissecting our life from birth up to present. I learned a lot of things that my psychiatrist didnt tell me. He just told me to do things that i want, I think he really meant to experience the things that are deprived from me since birth. The seminar explained the whole thing. I can now understand why i am like this and that... though i already know that i was most wounded in my schooldays age because my psych told me before hand... that's why i am taking meds because of my traumas my "brain cells" didnt develop properly.. [i cant remember the right term but, he said something like that"]...
Current Status:
I am now socializing bit by bit and most of the time on the net only... but i can now say more things than before... and the next step is to come out and socialize with the real people in front of me. About my sleeping pattern, well, i really love to work at night... i'm still working on it... to sleep normally....
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